One of Those Days

I had one of those days today, guys.

One of those days where I have to step back and crunch numbers to see if it's even worth all that. 

I'm a blur from place to place and have been and will have to be for at least two more years.

It makes me sick to think about it. I can't. I can't keep doing this for that long. Problem is I don't know which direction to go. What to drop, what to focus on to get me out of this rut.

I hate it. I hate the rushing from place to place. I hate not being there for my babies and my current schedule is a wreck. I have to work late to minimize what we have to pay a sitter and then I can't get to sleep at a reasonable time if I want to get anything else done in the day but then I can't get out of bed in the morning and then I rush around until I have to herd everyone out of the house.

Rinse and repeat.

I want to pursue my art but I can't afford to but not pursuing it is killing me inside.

Oh and one of those reasons I can't afford to? 

Crippling student loan debt.

For an art degree.

That is utterly useless.

I just feel like it's bad that the Isolation room in the first episode of Mind Field sounds appealing right now I guess.

So... how was your day? Please tell me something that made you laugh today.